Day 2

Today has been a day mostly spent in solitude and self-reflection, and pondering why I might have started a fairly revealing blog at 5am this morning. I guess I am trying to let everyone who wants to know in on my journey. Those friends on Facebook who I never see because over the years I have burnt a lot of bridges with my drinking and the safest way to stay my friend is to be a Facebook friend. To those people I would like to extend a sincere apology, and this is my way of putting it right. Even more than my friends, my family who have stuck by me through this debilitating disease and taken the good with the bad… that is the good when I am sober and the very messy bad when I’m drinking. To my mother and all of my siblings, thank you. Words cannot express how I feel for you and for what you have done for me. Well I guess today is officially day two, I’m still fairly fuzzy from the valium, but that will not be such a high dose tomorrow and they say that the third day is the hardest, so I’m in for a challenge! Bring it on I say. The strength I am feeling now is indescribable. I finally feel like I’ve got a real chance in combating this monster called alcoholism. And to my friends that I have lost through this process, have confidence that I am coming out of these four weeks a woman with new resolve who won’t be the embarrassing drunk friend, but rather the friendly sober driver. To all of those that have seen me fall down so many times that you think I will never pick myself up, I say watch me and you just might be pleasantly surprised.